I like stilettos because they literally always keep you on your toes...

First off, I feel very bad for Normal Guy because he seems to like me. Now, there’s nothing wrong with liking me, but there’s something wrong with liking me and also liking long term relationships, which he does because he told me. Poor Normal Guy.

We get along quite well, but I’m not sure I can get past the visions of white picket fences in my head when I look at him. He caught me off guard and had me go for coffee with him recently, and it was good. But I couldn’t help thinking ‘am I talking too much?’, ‘does he even care about this topic?’, ‘does this shade of red nail polish make me look too trashy?’ (the answer to that last one is no, it was just trashy enough). I don’t like to have to think about that stuff when I’m talking to someone. I really just like to be able listen to my own voice, but that’s a totally different issue in itself.

Normal Guy is just so safe; he’s like a pair of sensible black flats. I mean, I like to keep them around, but they’re never my first choice in shoes.

Something surprising did happen though, after my coffee with Normal Guy, I went and met Cheap Thrill for a coffee (I really like coffee). The surprising thing was that I actually had a really good conversation with Cheap Thrill. We talked about a lot of stuff; an hour and a half worth of stuff actually.
In the last 9 months writing about Cheap Thrill, it was obvious that I was never really interested in knowing him as a person. He was perfectly good as the arrogant cheap thrill role that he played. But now I do know him as a person, and I have to say, he’s become humanized to me. He actually has feelings - who knew? And what’s more I actually like him as a person.

However, Cheap Thrill is like my new pair of Steve Madden 5” gold glitter stilettos – they look great, and you feel like you could wear them all the time – but after a really short time period they end up hurting you like hell. That’s actually the time when it’s best to have a pair of black flats in your purse to change into.

Not to worry, there is no shortage of shoes happening in my life... but I do need to figure out what to do (if anything) with the two pairs I have out right now.