Welcome to the New Year...

Happy New Year!

When I last wrote I had my impending date with Fire Engine Red and he was being very nonchalant about it all. He actually asked me to come over to his place and “watch a movie”… right… I’m not even entirely sure if he’s a sociopath or not, so I’m really not going to just go over to his house never to be heard from again (I feel like I may be too suspicious from watching too many crime dramas, but really they’re based on true stories). So instead we set aside an actual day to go on a date and the day of the date finally rolls around and by 6pm I have yet to hear from him. Finally at 9:45 at night he calls me and the phone conversation went a bit like this;

Me: Hello?

Him: Hey… did you forget we were supposed to go out tonight?

Me: No. Did you?

Him: Yes. We’re terrible at following through on plans.

Me: mmhhhmm.

Him: What are you doing? I’m just waiting for some of my friends outside of a bar, you should come down. (yes because I love a date when other people are on it)

Me: I’ll pass.

And then he tried to do damage control for the rest of the conversation while I gave him one word responses to work with. He could obviously tell how unimpressed I was. He was traveling for the holidays and so am I so he said he would call me when he got back and we could reschedule.

The thing is I’m pretty sure he thinks he can get away with acting like this because he is so attractive, and more power to him for taking advantage of his good looks, but I’m not going to be playing his game. He really did pick the wrong girl if he thinks he can put in no effort and I'll stick around. I've been there and done that and am much more wise now. I'd hate to have to teach him a lesson if he keeps playing this game, but it really would make for great blog material and it's been so long since I've toyed with someone.

And then sometimes the universe sends out a sign because as I type this I just got a text message on my phone from Fire Engine Red wishing me a Happy New Year. It’s like his ears were burning.

Either way, this is nothing that I’m stressing about. I’m currently “on vacation” in a very cold place that’s bountiful with shopping and very attractive men. Care to play “Where in Canada is Becca?”

Tonight I’m going to a hockey game and when I think hockey I think hot men in pea coats at intermission in the Club House! Wish me and my flirting abilities luck!

I’ll update very soon! I promise!

Up in here...

I bet you’ve wondered where I’ve been - well sometimes I go on hiatus; like good tv shows I need to take some time off to regroup and tweak the storyline. But I will recap what’s gone down in the last month and a bit!

First off let’s start with Cheap Thrill… oh god… this is going to be painful. Ok well I could tell he was getting attached to me and it was not what I wanted; you all know I don’t want anything serious. Turns out Cheap Thrill is realllllly emotional… yeah... So I basically stopped spending time with him so he would move on and nothing would have to be awkward between us. Turns out he didn’t like that too much and sent me a facebook message that said (I’m going to try not to laugh as I type this); “My emotions have ended our friendship. Shallow as a dirt puddle in the middle of summer you are.”

Ok, well first of all, I can’t take anyone that writes like Yoda seriously. Second of all I gave him more than fair warning about my intentions, turns out he doesn’t listen so well. Third – I know I’m shallow, I believe I even started a blog post by saying I’m superficial – this isn’t news. So what happened after I got that message well I wrote back “seriously?”

Then we had a phone conversation that went back and forth with him saying I’ve ended our friendship and me saying I haven’t ended anything and I never said that we’re not friends. Then he asked me to come over to his place to talk and I said no, and then he said “whatever I’m over it” and then he hung up. So safe to say if I run into him on the street it will be very awkward, but no sleep lost over this.

In other news I got a job blogging about men and dating for an amazing company! I couldn’t feel more blessed if I tried. The Gods of Fashion and Shoes have been working overtime for me!

I have a date next week with Fire Engine Red (whom you may remember from the summer), we lost touch at the end of summer but he was making a great effort to see me lately so I’ve decided to see where things go. It really helps his case that he’s ridiculously good looking (I hope that wasn’t shallow).

Anyway, I love you all and I hope you’ve missed me as much as I’ve missed all of you!!

The Gods of Fashion and Shoes sure seem to have a funny sense of humour...

The past two days were filled with a lecture on my choice in men, possibly real feelings for Cheap Thrill, a guest appearance from an old flame and general overall confusion. It was not a good weekend to be my friend because their phones were going off every five minutes with calls and text messages from me. I know the Gods of Fashion and Shoes are testing me, I just really hope this isn’t the midterm, because if it is, I don’t want to know what the Final would be like.

I hadn’t seen my friend Dylan in a while but he had been keeping up on my love life through his girlfriend and my close friend Valerie. He decided to have a talk with me on Friday night. This came shortly after a stunt Cheap Thrill pulled earlier that evening.
I’ve known Dylan for years, and he’s watched the men I date come and go and sometimes come back again. He’s noticed the obvious, which all of you have probably noticed as well; I pick the bad boys, the assholes, the sociopaths and the pathological liars. He started telling me how great I was and how ridiculous these guys are for treating me badly.
I think my favourite part of the conversation was when he brought up Cheap Thrill though he said;
“You know, you’re great. I don’t understand these guys. If I was Cheap Thrill I would... I would... well I would probably be playing the field because he is really good looking and can do that kind of thing. But other than that I would definitely be trying to date you.” It was a classic moment.
I know these guys aren’t the kind you bring home to mom (Hi mom!), but we all know my issues with nice normal guys and the visions of white picket fences that flood my brain when I’m around them.

Now, onto Cheap Thrill; I don’t even know where to begin, probably with the fact that I think, but refuse to admit that I may possibly be getting real feelings for Cheap Thrill. It’s to the point where I want to share things with him, like when I got an ‘A’ on my midterm; I texted him to tell him.
We’ve been talking a lot and he’s been telling me about deep personal stuff; however Jake would tell me a lot of personal stuff and that meant zilch when everything was said and done with him.
I know I can’t use Jake as a measure on what other guys motives are because not every guy is a sociopath, but 1 in 25 actually are... how do you like that statistic?
He’s still flaky and unreliable and I have my expectations set very low for him, but lately with a minor exception of not following through on a plan, he’s actually been great.

I decided to go to Starbucks on Saturday afternoon and read a book in an attempt to keep my mind off of Cheap Thrill. I just couldn't get him off of my mind, that is until I looked up from my book and looked at the line up at the counter.
I couldn’t see his face, but I didn’t need to, I saw his hair and I instantly knew it was him... it was Jake. He has perfect timing, he just likes to pop back in just when things are going well. I stared at my book, and tried to ignore the fact that my stomach was in knots and my heart was going a million miles an hour. My hands were shaking and I tried to hold my book steady.
Even after everything, even after all I know, just seeing Jake could apparently still send me over the moon. I knew he was staring at me but I was keeping steady eye contact with my book, finally he just walked up to me.

I looked up and greeted him like I hadn’t noticed he was at the counter before. He looked great, really great. He sat down across from me while he waited for his drink and we caught up. I talked about my writing and directed him to where he could find the column that I write for my school paper... after he left I realized the last column I had turn in was about him. I’m not that concerned, because really, the worst he could think is that I’m crazy and I’m pretty sure that ship sailed a long time ago (and I mean I’ve been calling him a sociopath for the last 9 months on here so...).
I was rattled though and no longer was thinking about Cheap Thrill, the only person I could think about now Jake. I kept replaying the whole thing over and over in my head. I even went and got a Zen tea to try to mellow out. It was no use and there was no way I could focus on my book anymore.
The problem is that every time I’m sure I really like someone just as much as I liked Jake he seems to pop up like a Jake-in-the-box to remind me just how strongly I felt about him.

I don’t know where anything is going to go right now, I feel like I’m in a soap opera. Don’t get me wrong, I love it; I just wish I could get a preview of what’s to come of the next episode so that I could relax a little. But I promise, as soon as I know where things are going, you’ll know.

I like stilettos because they literally always keep you on your toes...

First off, I feel very bad for Normal Guy because he seems to like me. Now, there’s nothing wrong with liking me, but there’s something wrong with liking me and also liking long term relationships, which he does because he told me. Poor Normal Guy.

We get along quite well, but I’m not sure I can get past the visions of white picket fences in my head when I look at him. He caught me off guard and had me go for coffee with him recently, and it was good. But I couldn’t help thinking ‘am I talking too much?’, ‘does he even care about this topic?’, ‘does this shade of red nail polish make me look too trashy?’ (the answer to that last one is no, it was just trashy enough). I don’t like to have to think about that stuff when I’m talking to someone. I really just like to be able listen to my own voice, but that’s a totally different issue in itself.

Normal Guy is just so safe; he’s like a pair of sensible black flats. I mean, I like to keep them around, but they’re never my first choice in shoes.

Something surprising did happen though, after my coffee with Normal Guy, I went and met Cheap Thrill for a coffee (I really like coffee). The surprising thing was that I actually had a really good conversation with Cheap Thrill. We talked about a lot of stuff; an hour and a half worth of stuff actually.
In the last 9 months writing about Cheap Thrill, it was obvious that I was never really interested in knowing him as a person. He was perfectly good as the arrogant cheap thrill role that he played. But now I do know him as a person, and I have to say, he’s become humanized to me. He actually has feelings - who knew? And what’s more I actually like him as a person.

However, Cheap Thrill is like my new pair of Steve Madden 5” gold glitter stilettos – they look great, and you feel like you could wear them all the time – but after a really short time period they end up hurting you like hell. That’s actually the time when it’s best to have a pair of black flats in your purse to change into.

Not to worry, there is no shortage of shoes happening in my life... but I do need to figure out what to do (if anything) with the two pairs I have out right now.

My Thanksgiving Thank You... To You...

I am continually humbled by the number of page hits our little blog gets!
When I started writing this I didn't expect anyone to be interested in reading it. But for the last 9 months you've all followed my sometimes boring, sometimes overly eventful life as a bachelorette.

I often refer to this as "our blog" because it is, you are all there with me when a cheap thrill screws up or when an ex gets married. You are also the ones who have made the blog so popular by telling your friends about it!

And an extra big thank you to my friends and family who are so beyond supportive. Although now before telling me a story will say; "don't write this in your blog, I'm serious, don't." and I definitely try not to.
And we can't forget to thank all the men who continually do their best to inspire blog material. I even had one of them say "what's your blog address, I've been told it's really good, I want to read it". ha!

So again a thank you because I couldn't do it without all of you, and a special thank you to our American and Australian readers - I get to tell people that we're internationally read, that's huge!

**I'm also thankful for Madonna, Shoes, Fashion, Glitter and Fur Coats - most especially when they are all combined into the same moment.

All my love,

Becca
beccathebachelorette@gmail.com

I could fight, but I really seem to like to flight...

I don’t always end things with guys well. I don’t mean the guys that I date for a while, I mean the guys that I’ve gone on one or two dates with and I wasn’t feeling it. I really dislike telling someone that I don’t like their personality, I feel like it might hurt their feelings, moreover, I just don’t like feeling awkward and that’s an awkward conversation. I feel like in all likelihood I’m never going to have to see them again, so why ruin my day with that phone call.

There is one problem I have though and it’s when I’m caught off guard and my “fight or flight” response kicks in... I “flight”. One night I was walking down an empty neighbourhood street with a male friend of mine when a cat jumped out of the bushes... I pushed him at it and ran backward. I don’t think about my responses, they just happen, especially when I’m caught off guard and it’s someone I don’t want to see.

I had gone on a few dates with a guy and the dates were really fun, and he was very nice, but I was seeing someone else at the time that I liked more. So I just stopped answering his calls, and he left voicemails questioning why I wasn’t calling him back. Eventually they stopped and I forgot all about him, until 3 months later when I walked into a Starbucks. I had walked in through the door as someone else was leaving and there he was standing at the counter not 6ft away, directly in front of me. I didn’t have time to think I just knew I didn’t want to be there and my “fight or flight” kicked in. So I flit, I turned around to get out of there as fast as I could and... I walked face first right into the now closed door that was behind me. The good news was it didn’t turn out to be the guy I went on dates with, the bad news was I had to switch Starbucks because everyone there thought I was manic.

There was another time that I was in a grocery store shopping and I saw a guy that I had brushed off, the last thing that I wanted to do was get into a conversation with him. Without thinking I turned around as fast as I could and walked right into a gift card display that had been hanging at the end of an aisle. I knocked it to the ground and gift cards went flying everywhere, literally they were everywhere. I was in hell, as I was on the ground in my heels and skirt trying to shuffle them together I swear I could hear the guy laughing at the other end of the aisle, but I used whatever dignity I had left and didn’t look to check.

I don’t know why I always flight when I could just as easily fight. I suppose it’s because I look at my shoes as being my children, and if I’m in a situation, I just need to make sure that they get out of harm’s way. It must be my maternal instinct kicking in. Whatever the reason, I’ve resigned myself to the fact that there will be many more incidents like this in the future, I mean, I still have years of dating ahead of me...

Someone old and someone new...

Ok, so I’m a little superficial... I know you’re shocked. But it’s true, that’s what happens when you worship the Church of Madonna and pray to the Gods of Fashion and Shoes. So what’s a girl to do when she has to decide between a life she knows and loves and well... what everyone else has...

I met a guy and he’s normal, like really normal. There’s nothing eccentric about him, he’s funny, nice, smart, cute and normal. I’m just not sure that I could actually date him because he is so normal, the worst part is that I do kind of like him. He’s sort of like the guy next door, but I’m really the farthest thing from the girl next door. I’m kind of like the kid they kept locked in the attic too long and she turned a little loopy.
I feel like the playing field between us is just so uneven that I couldn’t play games with. He isn’t the type that would want to go a few rounds of “who’s the better manipulator?” with me. I think the biggest problem is that when a guy is straight up boyfriend material he makes for terrible blog material.

I’m not sure what to do about Normal Guy, I really do like him, but I really hate the idea of white picket fences, 2 dogs and a cat. Especially because animals and I don’t get along, they don’t like me because they know I like to wear fur coats. It’s a Cruella Deville thing, all she ever wanted to do was be on the cutting edge of fashion, and she's painted as the bad person. It’s like 101 Dalmatians was produced by PETA or something.

On the topic of superficial blog material I’ve talked to and seen a fair amount of Cheap Thrill in the past few weeks, yes that Cheap Thrill.
I’ve missed his outlandish cockiness, it entertains me. In an effort to get me to agree to see him a few weeks ago he reminded me that he has only 6% body fat - that didn’t so much make me want to see him as much as it made me want to go to the gym. But I ran into him on Sunday and had a quick coffee with him today, and in the midst of the midterm hell I’m in he actually had me laughing. Real laughing too, not just the laugh I do to humour people most of the time.

Who knows where things will go with Normal Guy, but for now let’s welcome back Cheap Thrill with open arms and guarded optimism, because after all he is first and foremost here for the cheap thrills.

To be a Good-time Girl...

For my friends that know me there is one thing that they all know very well – I attract married men, engaged men and men involved in a long-term relationship without even trying. For some reason, they seem to love me, literally like I have writing on my forehead that only they can see.

My sister told me it’s because I’m a “good-time girl” I tried to ignore the fact that she had just used a 1950’s word for slut. To be completely fair she went on to elaborate that it’s because I’m a fun girl, and I have an outgoing personality. My boss once told me it’s because I’m always happy and carefree and it’s the opposite of the responsibility they have at home.
I have a tendency to treat everyone the same regardless if they are men or women, so when I’m laughing and joking with a woman, it’s just laughing and joking. But somehow when I’m laughing and joking with a man, it translates into flirting and double meanings.

The thing is, if I don’t want a boyfriend or husband of my own, why the hell would I want someone else’s? This isn’t New York, and I’m not a Mistress. And every time an affair is found out it’s the women that get called out for their poor morals – ohhh k... if the woman is single it is her prerogative to do what she pleases, she is free of responsibility, she has made vows to no one. Yet they are the ones who get ridiculed and called names well men get the “boys will be boys” card.

I’ve received flowers and phone calls to my office, text messages upon text messages and as recent as last night propositional emails from men that are taken by other woman.
When I was 18 and worked as a cashier at a grocery store a regular customer would come through my till wearing his wedding ring and would continually ask me to have dinner with him.

I’ve gotten so used to it that it doesn’t even faze me anymore. I laugh and move on, although I did learn the more you turn down a taken man, the more they seem to pursue you... that is until you bring up their significant other... that seems to deter them slightly. I don’t judge the guys because I have no idea what arrangement they’ve made at home about what their allowed to do. But I do know I never want an angry wife or girlfriend tracking me down because they think it’s my fault their significant other has a wandering eye. I’m just the girl it happened to wander to, that’s all.

Opportunities that arise to meet men are the Fashion Gods showing you they care...

I love dating, and one of my favourite parts of the dating game is finding the new men to date. I’ve never really understood women who say they don’t know where to find men, they are literally everywhere. Sometimes if a girl is lucky she’ll have help singling out the successful guys in a crowd. For example; I was on the ferry home one night, minding my own business in the child-free lounge when a voice came over the speakers - “If there is a doctor on board could they please come to the Captain’s Office immediately.”
Now I know what you’re probably thinking – someone must have had a heart attack, or a child is very sick etc. Yes normal people think that way, but I’m an opportunist and if the ferry staff is nice enough to have all the doctors on board converge in one area, then the thought that comes to my mind is that it’s only right if I go to check and see if there is a cute, young, single doctor that shows up.

Very recently I was getting ready mid-morning and listening to the radio when they announced that lawyers would be giving out free legal advice in the City Square all day as part of some fundraiser/awareness thing they were doing. Again being an opportunist I saw this as a prime chance to see if there maybe was a young, cute, single lawyer volunteering at the event. So I threw on my trench coat and a pair of black stilettos and walked the few short blocks from my apartment to the City Square to see if it was worth my time.

And there he was – a cute, young lawyer. He was tall and fairly well built with light brown hair and great jaw line, now all I had to do was find out if he was single. Each lawyer had their own tent and it suddenly hit me... I had no problem that I needed legal advice for, but it was too late, I was already walking towards his tent and had made eye contact with him. Oh god, think...

“Hi, I’m Ryan.” He said, finishing his introduction with a perfect smile

“Becca” I said, extending my arm to shake his hand

“So what can I help you with today, Becca?”

“Um... well...I was thinking about making a will... you know, just in case. I would just hate to see my shoes and dresses go to someone who wouldn’t appreciate them... Do you think I need a lawyer or can I just use one of those kits they sell at Staples?”

It really did sound worse out loud than it did in my head. The look on his face showed some sign of amusement though.

“Well I suppose it never hurts to plan, but you are quite young to be worrying about something like this” he replied, then he followed that with a lot of legal talk that I nodded along to as if I was paying deep attention.

Once he finished giving me my legal advice I asked him about his law school and what he did for fun since he must be so busy with work all the time. After about ten minutes and my casual mention of being single he asked if I would want to go for drinks sometime. My answer was, of course, yes. Mission accomplished. The opportunities to meet new men are everywhere; you just have to be open to the possibilities and approach with no fear. Because really, what’s the worst that could happen?

Fashion and Finance, what a wonderful world...

I was contemplating what to write about when an event I read about a couple of years ago popped into my head. The event was being held in New York and it was called “Fashion meets Finance” the event was meant to hook up single guys in the finance world with single women in the fashion world. But in only the way New York can pull off straight up superficial attitude mixed with elitism, all the while making it seem classy, there was of course a catch to the event. No one was able to just purchase a ticket to attend the event, quite the opposite in fact, you had to be invited. Men and women who wanted to attend were asked to submit their picture, name, occupation and salary range. Easy right? No harm in applying to see if you get an invite right? Wrong. Every person who applied had their picture and info (including salary range) posted on the event’s website and whether or not they had been invited or declined. God bless New York. (I actually spent a good amount of time going though the applicants info and learned 2 things – Fashion really doesn’t pay all that well, and men that work in Finance in NY are ridiculously good looking.)

With my goal one day to work for a Fashion Magazine in New York, I can really see the appeal of dating a man that works in Finance. First off, I love fashion. Some people look at a painting and instantly make a connection with it. They see the beauty in the brush strokes, in the use of colours. Well I’m that way with dresses, and blazers, and skirts and heels and boots and accessories and fur... oh my god, do I love fur. But see the difference between someone that loves paintings and someone that loves fashion is that around every corner there isn’t an art gallery to tempt you and don’t even get me started on sample sale websites (they are a gift and a curse at the same time). When I see a beautiful designer dress I feel a pang inside, I need it and it needs a good home, I have to buy it. This is where dating a man that works in finance comes in because they know how to budget! They would be able to look at exactly how much I can spend on shopping while still having enough money to go out and show off my shopping achievements. A man in finance would most probably also be saving his money to put a down payment on a summer house etc. which in turn makes him even more appealing. Men in Finance also seem to make a hell of a lot more than women in Fashion, so just think of the benefits of a joint bank account when you get married!

So yes, the two worlds of Fashion and Finance seem to fit perfectly together, and would even create a new shopping opportunity of men’s suits, cuff links, polo shirts and argyle sweaters to buy as gifts for your man. The people who ran that event in New York knew what they were doing, just another reason it’s one of the greatest cities in the world.

What did people do before internet stalking?...

My name is Becca, and I’m a facebook addict... and I know I’m not the only one. As addictive as facebook is, it does come in very useful when you’re starting to date someone you don’t know. A person’s profile page is usually a pretty good indicator of what that person is really like. For example, when I started dating a very nice guy last year and looked up his page, I couldn’t help but notice all of his pictures were of him and various trash-tastic girls. Most of the girls I recognized, not because I knew them, but because I knew of them and their infamous stories. So 1 – he’s probably a lot like the girls he hangs out with, and 2 – he does a very poor job of masking the fact that he has an affinity for girls with fake tans and fake chests.

When used correctly, facebook is amazing. But when you’re single, the people you add as friends and the pictures you choose to be tagged in can make you or break you. As a general rule, I don’t add guys I’m dating as friends, if they find me, I’ll usually put them on limited profile. This is because for status updates I write whatever pops into my head, such as “I’ll know I’ve grown up when I wake up and smell like wine instead of tequila” and “Even if I got a yellow car and painted it red, I would still know it was originally yellow. It’s like dating a post-op transsexual.” - That is a level of crazy reserved for my friends, someone I’ve just started dating may not understand my particular sense of humour.

However, sometimes it’s useful if a guy can see my status update. I was dating a guy last summer and he added me to facebook. He wasn’t putting as much effort into wooing me as he should have been so I made my status “Becca had the most beautiful flowers delivered to her office today!!” then I told a few friends to comment, so they wrote “he is so sweet!” and “he’s definitely a keeper!”. Now obviously there were no flowers, but as soon as this guy thought I was dating someone else that’s sending me flowers, he stepped his game up tenfold. Manipulation? Possibly... but rather than telling him he needed to try harder, I let him think he was figuring it out on his own. It’s a win/win!

This blog topic came up because I spent a good amount of time looking up “Fire Engine Red” guy (who btw phoned me while on vacation to tell me he was thinking of me... usually I would think that’s a little intense, but he’s really good looking, so I’m going to let it slide) anyway, I found him, but his privacy settings wouldn’t let me see the interesting things like pictures. All in good time, I’m sure. He’s still gone another 2 weeks, which actually works out perfectly, because in 2 weeks “Summer Fun Pink” guy is moving away for a few months. It’s like the God of Fashion and Shoes is rewarding me for all my hard shopping with amazing scheduling. And I love him for it!


**This post is dedicated to my wonderful Fashion and English language loving friend who left me to go kickass in Bono’s hometown. Safe to say she was like a pseudo-therapist for me when it came to all issues, but especially concerning guys. Thank god for Skype!**

I'm just not a "neutral beige" type of girl...

Ok, so here’s the deal – it takes me about 10 minutes to decide what colour I’m going to paint my nails. Nail polish lasts for a week, and sometimes after I put it on, I change my mind, take it off and start again. So, when the universe suddenly gives me a plethora of guys, it’s very hard for me to know who to choose. There are 3 main guys, and in nail polish terms – I have a “fire engine red”, “neutral beige” and a “summer fun pink”.

So far the “fire engine red” is my favourite. The way we met is actually really funny – I was out with a friend and I saw a guy who used to play on Nick’s soccer team. I haven’t seen any of those guys in over a year, but he was staring at me pretty intently. He ended up walking over to talk to me and was with a drop dead gorgeous man. He said he wanted to introduce me to his friend because we’re both Macedonian (look up Macedonia on a map, it really does exist). Turns out, not only does this gorgeous man have the same heritage as me, he also grew up 10 minutes away from where I did. We ended up talking for 3 hours that night and called me the next day. I saw him again this past weekend and his sad news for me was that he was going away for 3 weeks. I’m looking at this as a positive, because this way I can enjoy the rest of my summer, and he’ll come back right when things start to quiet down for fall.

My “summer fun pink” guy is just that. He’s a summer boy. He’s the type of guy you chill with in the summer, and it’s always really fun, but that’s all he’s going to be. I went out for lunch with him and a girlfriend of mine the other day. We started talking about dating, and usually I censor myself, but for some reason I wanted to mess with his mind a bit. Bless his heart, by the end of lunch the look on his face looked like I verbally bitch slapped him.

Now, “neutral beige” – oh god, where do I start. He’s very sweet, actually far too sweet. He is looking for a girlfriend, and I told him not to date me, I gave him fair warning but he must like pain. It started because he has a boat, and I really liked the idea of me on a boat in the summer. The boat date was fine, a little long, and at a point when we were going back to the marina I remember thinking “I bet I could swim faster”, but it was ok.

During the date I told him for some reason this summer I’ve been craving hotdogs, and purposely going places just because I know that there will be hotdogs at the event (I wish I was kidding). Anyway a few days later, he asks me if I want to go play mini-put and grab a hotdog. Obviously I said yes, so the next day he picks me up at noon to go play.

While we’re driving there he brings up some play that he’s heard is really good, and asks me if I would want to go see it. I say yes, thinking I’ll get out of it later when he brings it up again. But to my surprise he drives right to the theatre, goes in and buys tickets for 8pm that night (I actually had other plans, but at this point had no idea what to say). So we play mini-put and he thinks it’s cute to give me a lower score than what I actually put. I would put 6 and he would say “we’ll give you a 3 for that one; oh look we’re tied now”. Honestly I don’t need my ego stroked in mini-put; I’m alright with being awful. He did this at every hole and by the 10th hole I was about to hit him over the head with the club. I refrained though because I didn’t think I could hit him hard enough to knock him out.

So after that he ordered my hotdog for me, except he got me a genetically mutated one that had cheese inside of it. As I sat there trying to eat, I suddenly realized he probably wanted to hang out all day. I asked him what his plan was. He said he wanted to take me to the butterfly gardens. It’s like he was trying to piss me off. I told him I had only planned for mini-put and had other things to do and asked him to take me home. So he drops me off at 2 and tells me he’ll be back at 5:30 to pick me up for dinner and the play (oh good).

So 5:30 rolls around and he’s early to pick me up, so he had to wait 20 minutes while I got ready. We go to a tapa restaurant and decided to sit at the bar. He orders a beer and I order vodka. He kept ordering food that I said I didn’t eat, so 4 vodka martinis and an empty stomach later I was ready to go to the play (I was most definitely drunk). I made it to intermission then told him I was sick and he needed to take me home. On the way home he started talking about some double date that we should do with friends, I didn't even acknowledge the comment. I should have felt bad, but I really didn’t. When I got home I ended up hanging out with my friend all night, and we had a blast. Then the next day he texted me saying he hoped I felt better, then the day after that he asked if I wanted to go on the boat, I told him I was still sick, so he asked if I wanted to watch a movie. I didn’t answer.

I’m not sure how I have the ability to act terribly (I actually told this story to someone and they called me a nightmare) but the guys just keep coming back for more. I do feel bad about this one though, he is very sweet, and clearly just wants a girlfriend. The problem is I don’t like being the bad one in a relationship, I mean I usually am anyway, but it’s usually less obvious.

It's raining men...

So much to tell all of you, so many guys, and they're all so different.
I'm in the middle of 2 dates right now, but I'll write a full report tonight!
There's something about this summer air!

Burn baby, burn...

Have you ever had a bombshell dropped on you, and your mouth just literally fell open? I had one of those moments last week. I followed it with a long session from my therapist Jose Cuervo, because I needed to allow myself one night for a pity party, and then get over it. Mr. Cuervo made me feel a lot better.
So you’re probably wondering what happened... yes well, it involves Jake as many of my previous posts have, and my friend Marianna.

Marianna and I met about 2½ years ago, but we were really more acquaintances than friends. We started hanging out a lot recently and obviously I talked about the boy drama that I was going through. Then we started talking about past men that we dated. And then we discovered that we both dated Jake – at the same time. Now this wasn’t shocking to me, I knew Jake would date many girls, just like I would be dating other guys. So Marianna and I started swapping stories (if you ever need to get over an Ex, find someone else he dated, I guarantee you it will set you straight). There were some differences between our stories, but not many. And then Marianna said it “do you ever feel like he was the one that got away?” and I replied “yep, until we started talking, now I don’t.” (for the record I ended it with Jake... over a text message...)

Marianna said she only dated him for a few months, but they stayed friends. I told her that I tried to end it with him because it had been 2 years and we weren’t going anywhere. That’s when Jake told me he wanted our relationship to go somewhere. I realized I’d waited 2 years to hear him say that and when he finally said it, it just wasn’t enough.

Marianna said she couldn’t believe it because Jake saying that was huge.

Then she said “ yeah, I mean he was pretty screwed up about relationships after the divorce from his wife.” BAM - it was like I got hit by a sledge hammer. (the only thing more shocking than finding out your Ex is getting married is finding out your Ex was married and you had no idea)

I couldn’t shut my mouth, it just fell open. Marianna realized I didn’t know, and told me it was just some girl from Ontario. That didn’t matter, 2 years and he couldn’t have mentioned he was married; it’s kind of something that should come up.

That’s when I realized he had strung me along for 2 years, and I was stupid enough to let him do it. The only consolation I have is that it ended a year and a half ago and I was the one that walked away. But learning this new information changed my opinion about him – I no longer look at him as someone that I could possibly get back together with in the future, or even want to be friends with for that matter. If he was a hypothetical dress I had hanging in the back of my closet, I’ve taken it out and set it on fire. Also, this meant that I could now go into sordid detail about all the weird things he did that I’ve been keeping secret... and I did... to all my friends... and it felt great.

I saw the signs the whole time; I just chose to ignore them. If we’re going to go into details about the signs, well he... (this has been removed because my mother assured me I would be sued. Personally I think a lawsuit would be great publicity for the blog, but nevertheless, she worries about me enough)... sounds like a character from a movie right?
But really this is my life, the people I know are never normal. That’s why I write this blog, I just seem to meet the most extraordinarily eccentric people and their stories need to be told... more as a warning than anything else... but still I wouldn’t trade it.

I forgot to clean in Spring so now I’m really going to make up for it...

It’s suddenly just occurred to me that my apartment is one shopping trip away from being on an episode of Hoarders. I didn’t get around to spring cleaning this year or really anytime in the last 3 years to be honest. I don’t get rid of things that easily, luckily I have a lot of storage but suddenly all my closets seem to be overflowing. So I’m going to do some summer cleaning, not just in my closets but in my phone too – there’s going to be some major phone number deleting going on.
I figure if I’m going to make a clean start of everything I have to go big.

I hold onto clothes not because I still wear them, but because I’ve attached certain memories to them. And of course most of those memories are guy related.
There’s my amazing black lace and ballerina pink silk dress that I wore to a work Christmas party when I was 18. It was the first time I’d ever really drank (I decided to drink straight gin, I can’t even smell the stuff now without wanting to die) at the party I even had to wear a bracelet that said Underage on it. A handsome young police officer came over with a threat of arresting me for public intoxication; luckily one of my many skills seems to be talking myself out of trouble. I was able to turn the situation around and ended up getting his number instead. I never called him though, there’s something wrong with a guy that wants to go out with a girl that’s wearing a label that says underage.
Then there’s Jake’s favourite dress of mine – I haven’t worn it in at least a year and a half. It’s a cute little black, purple and cream coloured kimono style dress. I don’t even like it anymore but I like the memories that I had in it. It’s the same thing with a black shirt dress that I wore when I was dating Nick.
There’s a button up dress that whenever I wore it, I got myself into so much trouble – good trouble – but still trouble all the same.

Dress after dress, story after story, I’m ready to clean them out and make some room for some new memories. That also means cleaning out my phone.
If I only use the guy’s phone number at 2am after Jose Cuervo convinces me it’s a good idea – it’s gone. If I only have his number because we went on a bad date once at some point in the last year - it’s gone. If the guy has a tribal tattoo – he’s out of my phone. If the guy works as a bartender – good riddance.

This is good, I feel better already. I even have the first new number that I’m going to add into my phone - this really cute guy that I see at Starbucks at 8 in the morning all the time. I know you’re probably thinking “you don’t get up until noon, why would you be at Starbucks at 8am?” Well the simple answer is, from 8-9am is when all the cute business men go to get their coffee. It’s like when people get up early to go bird watching; I’ll get up to go see who’s getting coffee and observe what ones are wearing rings on their left hands. Sometimes I’ll sit there with a Forbes Magazine and the business section of the newspaper just for kicks.
Because we all know the early bird gets the worm.

“I need to stop having fun and get serious with my life... so I’m getting back together with my ex...”

When I started hanging out with Ben he was just an acquaintance that shared my love for the finer things in life like tequila... and tequila. If I was going out at night I would call him and see if he was going out too. I never expected to actually become friends with him, but as we started hanging out we noticed that we had more similarities than differences. As Ben said “we’re so much alike that we will either really hate each other, or really love each other” and it turned out to be the later. Our friendship was totally platonic and we kept it that way, because being so alike we knew if we tried anything else it would end up in disaster.

With Ben there was no drama involved just constant laughter and trying to one-up each other on smartass comments. We’re both nocturnal, so while normal people were sleeping we’d watch old school cartoons and hangout. Both being single we’d talk about the people we’re dating, or attempting to date, or getting a restraining order on. He had quickly turned into my partner in crime for the summer, because he was up for anything, and we always got into a reasonable amount of trouble when we were together.

Ben just got back into town from a trip so I went to meet him at a restaurant for a late dinner to catch up. Dinner turned into two glasses of wine and the really good idea to go to the casino. Ben lost some money, but I came out ahead and since we were both starving decided to go spend my hard earned winnings at Denny’s, which was the only thing open at 2am on a Wednesday. We ordered one thing from every section off the menu so we’d have lots of options.

As we were laughing and eating, out of left field he said “you know Bex, you’re awesome, and it’s going to have to be a really special guy that will end up keeping your attention”.

“What do you mean by special? Like, ‘has to wear a helmet all the time’ special?” I said back

I could tell Ben was trying to go somewhere with this, so I pried more into what made him bring that up. Then he told me, he’s getting back together with his ex-girlfriend. And actually, if she knew he was with me right now, she’d be furious.

“So what? We can’t hangout anymore?” I said

“No, we can, I’m really good at sneaking around. I guess the funny thing is that when most people sneak around it’s to cheat, but with us it’s to get Cherry Coke at Denny’s at 2am.” Ben said

“Would she really have that much of a problem with us hanging out?”

“Babe, I adore you to pieces, but with your influence, I wouldn’t even let you hangout with my girlfriend.”

It makes sense, because if I had a boyfriend, there is no way I would let him hangout with Ben. But in the course of the night, Ben went from the person I phone at 3am with what I think is a great idea, to the guy I’m now secret friends with. When we pulled up to my apartment he gave me a hug and said “you never know, I might be single in two weeks”.
That may be true, but for now, it still feels like it’s going to be a very long summer without a partner in crime.

It’s like thinking you’re buying designer and finding out after it’s a knock-off and you can’t get a refund...

In our last blog post I was talking about a new guy that was amazing and all too perfect. Within 10 minutes of Hanna meeting him she was giving me smiles of approval every time he looked away. I took Max to meet him, seeing that Max used to be a player I figured who better to spot another player? Max said that he got nothing but good vibes. And finally Marianna, who we had breakfast with and she said that she was usually shy around new people, but he made her feel so comfortable. And me - almost always able to read people, was walking around with a ridiculously big smile on my face, because this guy, in one word, was awesome.

He pursued me, told me how he doesn’t get around, and in fact has had 3 long term relationships the last of which was 4 years (usually the talk of long term anything sends me running, but this guy was too enticing).
He used to be a hockey player and when we were talking I said there is no such thing as a well behaved hockey player when all you have is girls around you. He came around the kitchen island, placed his hand on my cheek, looked me dead in the eyes and said “there is such a thing, I’m proof. Not every guy wants to be like that. Have a little faith”. I absolutely melted like butter.

After going on a string of iffy dates and being exhausted from having to be “on” all the time I found a guy that made me feel totally comfortable. Totally forgetting there’s a reason I’m a cynic, and there’s also a reason I write a blog about dating and how everyone plays a game. And my god did I get played. See the simple fact is that when you put your faith in someone you don’t know, it’s like playing a game of Russian Roulette, you never actually know what’s going to happen when you pull the trigger.

So, did I lose the game? Absolutely. Did he turn out to be a lying DoucheBag? Absolutely (actually Hanna decided the other night that she’s moving him up from DoucheBag to Fuckwad). Am I contemplating revenge? Absolutely. Would I probably go to jail if I sought the revenge I actually wanted? Not if I got a really good defence lawyer (it also just so happens that I used to date one, funny how things work out).

I’m not that heartbroken, I bounce back fast. It just so happens that I met a very lovely young entrepreneur the other day at my gym, and what excellent timing because I suddenly have a lot of free time on my hands to flirt with him.

Hello summer, hello new dress...

I’ve found myself a new crush and couldn’t be happier about him. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again; there’s no better feeling then finding a new crush. He’s nice and funny and cute and not a douche bag, which has already put him miles ahead of some of the other guys I’ve liked. The even better news is that he likes me too, so it’s not going to be a stalking situation (not that there ever has been a stalking situation - there is a difference between stalking and conveniently ending up at the same place as a person over and over again - the police just didn’t understand). So yes, we both like each other and I’m getting Hanna to weigh in on him tomorrow at lunch.

I like this one, I really do, but with my track record I’m not sure how long I’ll keep him around. It’s the same thing with all of the guys, as soon as the “fun whirlwind new exciting feeling” goes away; it’s just not the same. It’s like when you get a new red dress and you have to wear it right away because you’re so crazy about it and if you could, you would wear it every day because it’s just that awesome. But then you get tequila stains on it, and it doesn’t fit as well as it did when you first got it and the bright red starts to fade. So you just happen to be shopping and spot an even better red dress then you had before. The old dress gets put in the back of the closet in case you ever get drunk and decided it’s a really good idea to call it...er... wear it again, and the new dress gives you that “fun whirlwind new exciting feeling” the old one lost.

I could blame the ADD for losing interest in guys so quickly, but... no wait... yes, actually let’s blame the ADD because I really want to go shopping.

So, all in all, pending Hanna’s approval (which he’ll get because he’s awesome) I think I might just try my best to keep this one around. But it is summer, so all bets are off...

I bet I'm probably not invited to the wedding...

I woke up last Friday to a picture message on my phone from Hanna. Half awake and with blurry vision I opened the message to see a screen grab from Nick’s facebook profile page. His status read Nick is getting married; believe it or not... it’s true. The only words that came into my head at that moment were “shut. up.”

This is new territory for me; I’ve never known anyone that I’ve ever dated to be engaged or even to be in any sort of serious relationship at all actually. The fact of the matter is, even though the guys I date are several years older than me, they all have one thing in common – they’re commitment-phobe sociopaths.
I prefer them this way. The fear of commitment is fine with me, because I don’t want to be in a serious relationship just as much as they don’t (it really gets in the way of my dating life) and the sociopath part, well that’s just pure entertainment.

But Nick engaged... really? After the initial shock the next thought that popped into my head was “Thank. God. I dodged that bullet” (fyi – When I thank God, I’m actually thanking the God of Fashion and Shoes – whom to my dismay was never given any credit in religion class. Who do you think dressed Eve after she was tossed out of Eden? Hmmmm?).
Anyways, Nick is not someone I pictured getting married, with his pathological lying and his misogynistic ways I didn’t think there would be anyone who would actually say yes.
Funny thing is she’s from another country which opened up doors for all kinds of jokes about how she’s just doing it to get into Canada. I texted my best friend Steph to tell her and her simple response back was “desp for a green card hahaha”.

As I sit in the spot where I once trapped Nick and caught him lying to my face (oh the memories...), I felt it necessary to write a blog post about this momentous step in his life. I can only hope that his new fiancé has more luck with him than I did, and perhaps that she doesn’t catch on to his lying - because ignorance really is marital bliss.

Just call me Mae West...

What’s in a reputation? Well I suppose a lot to some people and very little to others. I've learned it's best not to judge someone based on what other people have told you about them, because I cant even imagine what some of the guys I've dated say about me.

My date the other night was non-eventful, he took the liberty of ordering for me at the restaurant, he was very smooth and I did my best impression of someone who cared about his interests. Unfortunately there wasn’t enough chemistry there to make me want to go on a second date with him.

The date itself wasn’t blog worthy but what happened an hour before the date was.
I was on the phone with Hanna and I said that I had to have a shower and get ready for the date, Hanna asked me who I was going out with, and so I told her his name. Hanna’s reply – “I know him! He’s a terrible person!!”
Well excellent. Not that I wouldn’t take Hanna’s word, but she had mislead me slightly before regarding information about a guy.

It was about a year ago and I only knew Hanna as a friend of a friend, but she applied for a job at my work and it just so happened that I was suppose to interview her. I was looking her up on facebook and noticed that she was friends with Nick, whom I had just started seeing and I was meeting his parents that night.
When Hanna showed up for the interview I took her into a separate room to talk to her. I asked her a few standard questions then asked her how she knew Nick. She was confused but said she’d met him a couple of times through a friend. I asked her if she knew anything about him and she said “Well I heard he’s gay. Why?” And my response was of course “I just started seeing him.”

Obviously I had to give Hanna the job after an interview like that, but the good news is we quickly became best friends. That dinner with Nick and his parents was more than strained. Hanna corrected herself two days later telling me that she had talked to her friend and indeed, Nick is straight. Lesson learned.

Last week I was with a very close friend Max and we were joking about dating and talking about the different people we’ve gone out with when this happened;

“Yeah, I could never go out with a girl like you” Max said.

“What do you mean a girl like me?” I replied

“I like girls like my girlfriend, you know, good girls”

“And what exactly am I then?”

“… well you know, I mean you know that you’re a bad girl, you even blog about the guys you date” Max said

No one had ever referred to me as “bad girl” before, and I spend very little time thinking about what other people think of me, so it really never occurred to me that I would have this reputation. I’m really not troubled with it. If being a nice girl means staying in, baking cookies and staying out of controversy well then darling I’m more than happy to be a bad girl.

In fact I’m going to start living my life to become a modern day Mae West, because it’s like Ms. West said “There are no good girls gone wrong - just bad girls found out”.

Sometimes it takes an Ex to help you get your inspiration back...

Allow me to explain my absence… I’ve been asked why I stopped writing in my blog and it’s not that I wanted to stop writing… I just stopped being inspired. See the problem was I was spending all of my time with a nice guy (this is a first for me considering I prefer the company of sociopaths).

Nice Guy is just as his name describes him. He is polite, handsome, well rounded, and good on paper. We even went to the fair. Now being who I am I couldn’t very well sit down and write to all of you “today was a wonderful day, we went to the fair and ate cotton candy, and then we went home and took a nap before dinner”. I mean I didn’t want to write about it, so what are the odds any of you would want to read about it.

While we were out on Friday night I was trying to figure out how much I actually liked Nice Guy when I spotted Jake and in an instant everything changed.

Seeing Jake was like getting hit with a ton of bricks, because even after a year just the sight of him still makes my heart race and my hands shake. I told Nice Guy that I just wanted to say hello to Jake and that I would be right back.

The first thing Jake said to me was “oh my god, look how long your hair is! I was telling you to do that for years!” (Its true, I even wrote a blog about it http://beccathebachelorette.blogspot.com/2010/02/im-not-saying-i-want-to-shave-my-head.html)
We talked for about 15 minutes, I just couldn’t tear myself away from Jake – I didn’t want to. I knew Nice Guy was waiting for me, but seeing Jake was like seeing a ghost – an unbelievably good looking ghost with great hair and a perfect smile. We talked like it was old times, like nothing bad ever went down, like I never acted crazy, like I never told him we were a broken record and I didn’t want to do it anymore.

After I went back over to Nice Guy, he wanted to leave immediately, so we did.
After we left he said “You still like your Ex.”
And I answered a very simple “Yes, I do.”

It wasn’t worth going into how it didn’t matter if i still liked him, because Jake and I would never happen again. I didn’t want to try to redeem myself with Nice Guy because as nice and wonderful as he is, I want my heart to race when I see the person I’m dating. Going to the fair just isn’t enough for me. I want passion and I want my hands to shake and I want to look at the guy and know without a question of a doubt how much I like him.

So yes, Jake and I may never happen again, but by seeing him, I was able to remember exactly what I want.
And with that I went to the grocery store yesterday and picked myself up a date for Wednesday, so I’ll let you know how it goes.

About me: Oh, I'm never really good at discribing myself, but my friends say I'm...

When I see a shoe, within the first 2 seconds I know if I want to try it on or not, whether the shoe and I have made a connection. Sometimes it’s love at first sight. My heart will skip a beat and I get a rush of endorphins, there’s nothing like holding that shoe in your hands and putting it on your foot for the first time. I think about how much fun we’re going to have together going dancing, for walks on sunny days and on dates.
My shoes are a big part of my life, and I take selecting the right ones very seriously, I will not buy a shoe that I have lukewarm feelings for and I will not buy a shoe online, because although it may look good in the pictures and the description is great, you never really know what’s going to show up at your doorstep.

That being said, I will never use an internet dating website to try to find myself a boyfriend. I don’t understand it, where’s the first look and the sly smile? The eye contact? The feeling in your stomach telling you that you need to talk to this guy? The fun? The romance? The spontaneity?
It’s more of a job interview then it is dating. There are the free sites like Plenty of Fish (which let me tell you, if the guy’s not willing to fork over $30 a month for a legitimate dating website, do you really think he’s going to be better then the losers you’ve dated before?).

E Harmony lets you pay them and they find a match for you after you fill out their questionnaire. I imagine it goes something like this –

Age: 25-30 Check
Sex: Female Check
Desperate to get married to fill the loneliness inside: yes Check
Hair Colour: Blonde Check
Enjoys outdoor activities: No, but I’ll say yes, because guys like that Check
Wants Children: Yes, but will say no if it will get more matches Check
Number of cats: 3 Check
Low standards: Yes Check

Alright, match her up with Joe, the balding 37 year-old divorcée with 2 kids who’s desperate to move on faster then his ex-wife.

I just find internet dating so impersonal and to go though profile after profile, trying to decide who you will settle for to take you and your shoes out seems… disheartening.

I get that after a while some people get tired of playing the game, but as long as you stay happy and positive, people will be attracted to you, no internet necessary. And when you’re looking for something that plays a major role in your life, do you really want to order it off the internet?

I just found the most amazing teal stilettos last week and we're going dancing tonight.
And really when you think about it men are a lot like stilettos – when you get them, they're all new and shiny and you want to show them off to everyone. Then after a while the heel starts to wear down and they get all scuffed – you could take them in to be repaired. But isn’t it just easier to cut your losses and get a new pair with a higher heel?

"Hope you don't hate me. I have been kinda seeing a girl. Still love you."...

All’s fair in love and war, but there are always rules that a person should follow to ensure the game is played like gentlemen.

The number one rule is that honesty is always the best policy. A cheap thrill is your backup, they know it and you know it. So if things have gotten serious with someone else, you must keep them in the loop and vice versa.
This is important for one simple reason it is the difference between having a fun flirtation that doesn’t hurt anyone and having a fun flirtation and later being accused of seducing someone else's boyfriend.

You’ve probably guessed it by now, but our beloved Cheap Thrill who has been providing us with stories had been keeping one big piece of information to himself. That would be the girl that he’s seeing – oh but don’t worry, she lives out of town, so it’s not like she’ll find out what he’s been doing… right?
The thing is you can’t be a cheap thrill if you have a girlfriend, if you act like a cheap thrill and you have a girlfriend, that doesn’t make you a cheap thrill that makes you an asshole.
I didn’t even find out about this from him, but from another source, although I woke up to a text message on my phone from him this morning saying "Hope you don't hate me. I have been kinda seeing a girl. Still love you".

Let me tell you how last week went down. He wanted to hang out Wednesday evening but I was busy so he asked what my week was like. Friday arrives and at noon he wants to know if I’m free later. I tell him he can come over to my place, well later arrives and he says he’s coming… then he stands me up. If you want to make me angry – waste my time.
Then it occurs to me that I never actually cared enough to find out anything about him. So when I start asking around I discovered the girl he forgot to mention.

So since he wants to play dirty, I can play dirty - I have no sympathy for him, because clearly i was underestimating him before.

And on the high chance Cheap Thrill that you read my beloved blog – xo, still love me?

The original cheap thrill...

As much as I’d love to let everyone know about Cheap Thrill I’m still considering a few different ways of how I want his chapter to end. I need to hold my cards close to my chest for now.

But just remember when one door gets closed a different one gets opened, and who happened to walk through that door today but Randy.
Randy is an old cheap thrill of mine from years ago, actually he is my original cheap thrill. When I was younger we worked together and he would flirt with me mercilessly. I actually stopped dating a guy so I could pursue Randy. I was only 18 and we hung out a few times - this is when I figured out what games a cheap thrill plays. Randy is a master at playing the game, he knows exactly what girls want to hear. No hurt feelings he out played me fair and square – but at the time he was playing at an advanced level and I was still a beginner.
I haven’t seen him in years, in fact I forgot he even existed, but when I saw him today it was a great coincidence that I’ve recently had an opening in the cheap thrill department.
We chatted for about 10 minutes today and we’re going to catch up properly soon. If he’s still the same Randy he was when I knew him, he’s not dating material, but he’s funny and nice and great to hang out with.

If all else fails I’ll go looking for a guy who’s in the self-help section in Chapters – I love a guy who’s looking to be saved from one thing or another.